"Bending" Already

Studying: Romans 15-16

Memorizing: Romans 1:1-9

Reading: 900 Days, the Siege of Leningrad

Entertainment:  1 hour

Thoughts: Good

I'd be lying if I said all was well today.  A couple of days ago I noted the phrase in Proverbs 2:2 "Incline your heart to understanding" and how the Hebrew can be translated "bend."  I gave a possible practical example of "bending," noting those days when I just don't "feel" like doing what I'm supposed to do.  Well, today was one of those days.

I had been scheduled to begin a weekly class this afternoon, teaching a group of Russian seminary students how to sing.  That was the big plan for the day, but yesterday evening I found out that the start of it was being postponed until next week.  "No big deal" I thought.  "I can use the extra time."

Well, I'm not sure what happened with the day.  For starters, my head has hurt me all day long. I've had a dull ache in my head that just hasn't stopped.  I did manage to get my Russian homework done, and actually read my Bible, but all of the other things I had hoped to do (i.e. read a little more, get some extra Russian study in, work on some music handouts for the students next week, just to name a few) just didn't get done.  On a scale of one to ten, my motivation was about 1.5 today.  And I know I can't blame it all on the headache, because my head has hurt before and I've managed to be more productive.  

But this day has dwindled to its end.  Soon I'll head to bed, and today has been a lesson in "bending."  It's days like this when motivation is low, and the "feelings" just aren't there, that make me understand and realize just how much I need the Lord.  If anything, today deepened my prayers.

So I press on.  

"Now my the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that you will abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." - Romans 15:13